Tomorrow marks the start of production on The Shape of Kindness.
The camera is built, every battery is charged, the cases are labeled, color-coded, and ready. And for the first time in my filmmaking life… I’m stepping onto a set where my only responsibility is DP. That still feels strange to say.
For years, I was the team: writer, producer, director, DP, editor, sound, color, you name it. If something needed doing, I did it because there was no one else to do it. That instinct doesn’t go away easily, and stepping into a true collaborative environment has stretched me in ways I wasn’t prepared for.
These past couple of weeks have been “all hands on deck, all hours of the day.” Endless prep, meetings, camera builds, revisions, pickups, and making sure nothing slips through the cracks. Because of that, I’ve been a little quieter on Stage 32 than usual — and I appreciate everyone’s patience. Sometimes the best way to show up here is to get the work done out there.
This project has been a crash course in letting go of control and trusting the team that our producer assembled. Letting a director truly direct. Letting departments own their domains. And letting myself focus on one thing: the image and the emotional truth behind it.
It hasn’t been smooth internally. I’ve had moments of fear, doubt, frustration, and a few breakdowns.
Because when you’ve always held every piece alone, handing them off feels like giving away your safety net.
But the deeper lesson finally broke through this week:
Letting your team carry their part isn’t losing control. It’s creating space for the film to become bigger than you.
Tomorrow, other people carry the weight with me.
Tomorrow, I get to focus my full energy on light, blocking, lenses, movement — the reason I fell in love with filmmaking in the first place.
Tomorrow, the story becomes real because many hands bring it to life, not just mine.
So tonight, the nerves are there.
The excitement is there.
The desire to make something beautiful is definitely there.
But underneath all of it is something new for me:
Trust.
Trust in the prep.
Trust in the team.
Trust that shared vision makes stronger films.
Question for the lounge:
If you’ve transitioned from doing everything yourself to working with a full team, what was the hardest part of letting go? And what surprised you most once you did?
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I use a lot of handheld primarily or locked off. I really love locked-off wides, but I also mix it up depending on the scene's emotional tone. I approach OTS shots the same as well. Dirty OTS has a di...
Expand commentI use a lot of handheld primarily or locked off. I really love locked-off wides, but I also mix it up depending on the scene's emotional tone. I approach OTS shots the same as well. Dirty OTS has a different feeling than Clean. Handheld has a different emotional and psychological reaction than a locked-off or a gimbal. That choice lies primarily in the emotional tone and feeling the director wants the scene to have or the scene to progress to. A scene may start locked off, but let's say two characters begin to argue halfway through. I'd switch to handheld at the moment the tension begins to rise because of the psychology associated with that approach.
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Interesting convo. I hated hand-held when it became ubiquitous. I hated it even more when I discovered it was being applied in post. I ken the application of it, when it is called for, (as Lindsay Tho...
Expand commentInteresting convo. I hated hand-held when it became ubiquitous. I hated it even more when I discovered it was being applied in post. I ken the application of it, when it is called for, (as Lindsay Thompson , explains) but when it is slathered on like a way beyond best-before cliche it is a major turn-off. As for Children of Men - the war-correspondent look had me thinking the entire film was a cold open, and I kept waiting for the story (was there one) to start.
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Horses for courses.
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@Stephen Folker The script and its genre will tell us what the film needs. However, many action films use the shoulders and arms.
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Go with Intend! I used to love the shaky feel of handheld cameras often seen in movies that came out in the early 2000s. Later on I developed a taste in slow & static compositions as seen in Lawrence...
Expand commentGo with Intend! I used to love the shaky feel of handheld cameras often seen in movies that came out in the early 2000s. Later on I developed a taste in slow & static compositions as seen in Lawrence of Arabia or Mishima - A life in four chapters.
It all depends on what you want to achieve, and as soon as you adapt this philosophy, you end the hellish cycle of burning out from the "mainstream" or trending media, because it will never go out of style. Handheld or sticks, It will always look good, as long as you bring the right argument to justify it's presence.
You're right on, Children of Men looked amazing- the story developed into quite a personal journey through and through.
It always kept you right there, in the moment, in the action- thus, the choice for handheld.
Incredible tension, solidified through intention!
So rather ask: what is the story trying to tell me? That would be my approach going forward but i'm also interested in hearing other takes on this. Especially when it comes to developing a personal style like Emmanuel Lubezki for Terrence Malick or Sir Christopher Doyle for Wong Kar Wai.