A young widow inadvertently stumbles onto the meaning of life after the death of 5 loved ones forces her to reckon with the demons of her past.

SYNOPSIS:

At 46 years old, Tania Koster lost 4 of the most important people in her life - her mom died first, 12 months later her best friend of 30 years passed away, 3 months after that her husband passed suddenly, two weeks later her step father died - only to lose her father a few short years later.

Everything she knew to be true about her life, her past and the dreams for her future were gone in the blink of an eye and what transpired was a journey of internal reckoning that left her at rock bottom, suffering from severe depression and PTSD. But who knew rock bottom had a basement and through Tania’s desperate attempt to reach for the light, an intense soul twin romance and the subsequent dark night of the soul changed everything.

The next few years of healing and therapy allowed Tania to find acceptance, take responsibility for her role in her life and the tragedy she experienced, released the guilt and shame of her violent childhood and as a result she discovered the ultimate meaning of life; why we are on this planet and our role in how we are solely responsible for the tragic things that happen to us and who we ultimately become as a result and why compassion, love and empathy is the only thing that matters.

(This memoir is based on the screenplay Rub It Till It Bleeds)